Awareness

So, it's Friday, 7 a.m. and my house is quiet. The teens have left for school. My coffee is calling my name...or should I go back to bed?

I checked my facebook, then my work email. (yah, I know, it's my day off, so what!) Got an email from a good friend who I work in ministry with. Answered it. Cleared out some of the stuff that has been in my In box...but no longer necessary. Now what?

Well, here's what I'm thinking about this morning.

I must be a simplistic thinker. For me, this whole God thing is simple. The bible is the rule book, it contains the rules. God wrote the rules, so He MUST be in charge. I've never been one to openly disobey...so I follow as best as I can. I don't question God, or His power, or the fact that He created the world, or that He's in charge. But is that enough? I don't think so.

For me to fully demonstrate that God is a priority...I must sacrifice. I must be uncomfortable at times...visibly. I must stretch myself...and continue to grow. Do I do that? Sometimes. But do I really stop letting it be about me?

I read on someone's blog this morning about selfishness and self-awareness. WOW...those are big topics that I wouldn't even begin to try to advise folks on. But it made me think. At a rehearsal I was at last night, we talked about Christ-awareness during devotions. Christ-awareness...at first I think of being aware of Christ in my life. But then as I dig deeper I wonder more about the fact that being more Christ-aware would put me in a place of demonstrating my faith through my actions, being forever mindful of being Christ-like. (which, by the way, I do not do well sometimes) Christ-aware doesn't necessarily mean recognizing that Jesus lives in my heart. To me it means more that OTHERS can see it more, or maybe not, in me. How many of us are so aware of the presence of Christ in our lives and in our hearts that we constantly demonstrate it? Speaking for myself...this is something I must work on. I have a strong desire to be like Jesus...more aware of His presence in my being than mine. Less self absorbed...I want to be oozing with the love of Jesus...pouring out of my skin with my words, my actions, and my love.

So, this is where my head is this morning. This is way deeper than I intended to be at 7 a.m. My plan was coffee, a little more sleep, chasing some dust bunnies, etc. Funny how God takes moments and makes us AWARE of Him? Thank goodness!